When you get pregnant (or your wife gets pregnant) God immediately starts filling your heart with a new kind of love unlike anything you've ever experienced before. It grows and grows unexpectedly inside you until you feel like your heart is gong to explode. Then when your child is finally born you start pouring that love into that child every day of your life as that love & that child continues to grow. If you have a child you know what I'm talking about. To not love your child is like not breathing. Now imagine that same scenario except your child isn't here. You feel like your heart is going to explode every single day and there's no cure. It's like the worst possible tease and you totally fell for it. You feel like a fool yet given the option you'd gladly do it again. This is part of what it means to be a parent. I guess.
